The last time that I blogged, on Food and Whatever, it was the beginning of a season in this journey that I feel like I started. To write the truth, I really don't know how or where to get some kind of traction going right now. There's a few episodes of Food and Whatever that need editing so that they can be posted up. Looking for a new job that would push me to new things hasn't happened, clients...not even close. Though this feels disheartening I know that I cannot and must not give in. Have you ever felt like you are stuck in a pause mode? I am moving, or maybe I have the perception that I'm moving but really am not moving. I wish that I knew what to do, say, where to go but I know that that's not the way things work. My body is getting into shape, but it seems like nothing else is. This week coming up I have to sit down and work on menus and pricing for all the stuff that is planned out. I know it takes time. That I must be persistent and push through. So this is where I am currently, wanting to do all the things that I hindered my self from achieving and wanting to get them done within weeks. Instead of trying to accomplish Goliath size plans at one time, maybe I need to make David size plans and smooth out my stones for when those Goliath plans start to come into play. So from here, today, what do I do? Break down huge plans into stages, continue to achieve my goal of having my athletic body back, make the menus and pricing, and cook like there's no tomorrow (pics will be posted on my social media pages), believe and trust God.
So it's been a while since I've blogged anything on Food and Whatever......but it's a new year and a new season in my life.
In this year, I am starting a journey that should've been started many years ago. The only one who has stopped me from starting in the past was me, myself , and I. Is it going to be personal? Yeah. Is it going to be hard? Yeah. Most of all, this is going to be a journey that is going to make me reflect and face the very things in my most inner being that made me doubt every dream, every inch of talent and passion that I have in and for food. No matter what accomplishments I've had in my career, it has never been enough proof to myself of my abilities and what I can do. Nobody could make me see the truth that has been right in front of me all of these years. It's time to let God shatter the mask and the lies that I have created around me that for some reason have been my safety net. No matter how much I wished and wanted and strove, doubt and self worthlessness always were in the forefront. Food and Whatever and my career could have been in a whole different level and it's time for me to catch up.
Why am I blogging about this journey? I don't know if this is part my way to shed this doubtfulness that I have towards myself or if this is a way to share my story with others that might have the same problem. Truly, all in all, this is definitely out of my comfort zone; but this new way of trying to pursue my life and career is too. Let's see where God wants to go with this. It is one thing to try to make things happen in your life that don't belong, it is another to doubt yourself and the truth of what God says about how He made you. I understand that many may doubt the existence of God, but for me He is a huge part of my life and this journey. So here we go! I can not and must not falter. So here's to God, Food and Whatever, catering, being a personal chef, cooking parties, food, and to my husband, family and friends.
Chef Cristina V
Host of the online cooking show Food & Whatever and the Executive Chef and owner of The Single Chef.